It's funny how much we redefine ourselves as we grow older. What a joke it is to choose our life's career at the green age of 18. People talk to you about passion, but all it creates is panic. What if it doesn't work out? What if you don't have a passion yet? What if you're not good at what you like?
Honestly, having chosen a path different from what was my perceived 'passion', I think we take it too seriously. What matters the most is to be able to financially hold yourself upright. Once you do, you're finally free to chase whatever it is that you want to do. Survival first, satisfaction next.
Five years into the working industry, I reminisce at the unidirectional person I used to be, and this multifaceted person I've become. No, I haven't lost that version of myself, I've only added more dimensions to it. At the time, my identity revolved around the written word, this blog, my journals, and occasional poetry. Today they take a backseat while I delve deeper into physical fitness, something I regretted not taking up in my formative years.
Today I experiment with how best to build a good lifestyle. There are too many branches spreading from every point, too many things going on in this world, too many options, and just this one lifetime. For the first time ever, I have spent a whole year without writing a thing in this blog. I have often written about uncertainty, melancholy, inhibitions, and diffidence. Maybe it's been a year since any of them paid me a visit. So today I will write about certainty, stability, and happiness.
2025 will probably be the best year of my life. There are some defining moments in your life when you realize how much you've accomplished over time, be it personal or professional. I tied the knot with my long-term partner last year, and that was one of those moments. I'm extremely proud of pulling off the whole process on our own, I'm proud of building the relationship that we have together, I'm proud of the friendships we've maintained, and learning to accept the ones that didn't last.
I'm proud of taking care of my body, of being consistent, and of saying yes to new hobbies. I'm grateful for having a partner to share this life with. I'm grateful to have friends to hang out with. I'm grateful to have an enjoyable workplace to be at every day (more emphasis on the people and environment rather than the work :p ).
So here we are. I would tell my past self that we've made it. And I'm hoping to hear even better things from the future. May 2026 continue this good spell.
Touch wood.
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